Drawing Caption: A Family Trip

My Confusion about wanting and suffering in my life is something related to preassumed concepts of success.

I always thought it is me versus the world. Once I eliminate the world my problem will be solved. I tried that let myself be alone and isolated from the world.

Let me tell you the current situation, I have isolated myself from the world now it’s me versus me. bwahaha!!!

Yea this is more difficult I can’t blame anyone anymore now.

Okay.

I thought I want alone time to do the best art but then I am suffering from uncertainty.

I thought I want all day to practice painting but I suffered from the tremendous amount of pressure.

Why artists are so full of risks and suffering?

Why did I think of being such a risk-taker?

Why do they glorify their life with suffering?

If I just ignore the failures and of course suffering, I think it was all worth it trying.

But now after wanting, trying and suffering I ask myself why can’t I keep it simple.

I think I should paint because I want to paint.

I should draw because I want to draw.

I should write stories because I want to write.

I should tell you about myself because I want to.

I realized these wants become so damn simple after not having the burden of expectations of outcomes or glorification. There are no failures if my success depends on me being able to get what I want.

And if my wants are simple. I’ll have my everyday victory.

After having so much thinking and restlessness I feel relieved to come to this conclusion.